If I’d stuck with the original plan, this blog would have been born back around February or March of 2002. That was just about the time I was being introduced to my wife’s new boyfriend and life was beginning to feel a little too tight. But then, for me the words wife’s new boyfriend seem proof enough that original plans don’t always work out.
In hindsight, the original plan had its flaws. For one, I would have had to actually do some thinking during a time that I seemed capable of only one thought. Writing, at least good writing, usually requires the mind to breathe, and I don’t think my brain took a good deep breath of air until just a couple of months ago. The only thing I can think of, is that my lungs must have taken pity on the poor, beaten up brain, slipping it a drop or two of oxygen when it wasn’t looking.
Someone asked me once why I didn’t write it all down, all of that original plan gone awry stuff. It was jodi I think, who seems to have that incredible talent of writing everything down. I don’t know. It just seemed too hard. Or maybe I thought if I didn’t write it down I would be able to someday forget everything that happened.
But some of it made it down. A tiny taste of that suffocating emotion and pain, and even some funny stuff, like the time I discovered I made a lousy detective. For everyone’s information, in matters very little how many millions of minivans are on the roads, they’re just no good for sneaking around in.